Prayer of surrender

See http://debatingchristianity.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=12208&start=20
"How the church looks to me"

2 Nov 09

Prayer of surrender:

Dear God

I do not understand.
There are so many things that I do not understand.

But I choose to trust you.

I realize that you are interested in the one half-dead person lying on the side of the road, to weak, to beaten up, stripped and desperate to help himself.

Rather than nameless faceless masses, Your heart beats for the one.

Thank you for revealing this to me. The simplicity.

The good Samaritan.

I want my life to reflect the behaviour, mindset and attitude of the good Samaritan, towards the one.

Use me Lord. Make me usable material in your hand. Where my attitude and belief systems and disposition is a misrepresentation of Your being, come and prune me and shape me, come and take this rough diamand and cut it, that I can shine with Your brilliance and Your glory.

I want to reach out to "the one" with a servant heart. Not with a "pulpit" "know it all", "talking down", style and attitude, but with that of a humble waiter, serving food to a prince who is seated at the King"s table.

That is how I want to teach, serve and bring Jesus. Jesus the teacher. Jesus the servant. Jesus the meek one.

I want to come to You and learn from You my master what it is to be truly meek and lowly. Lowly. I want to bend more and lower.

That I may know You Lord.

The cry of my heart is to know you.

And if that means that for some time still you want me to sit here with You in darkness, being broken, so I can learn Your ways and Your heart and have true compassion and passion as is fit in Your Kingdom and reveal Your heart, then that is ultimately good, and I praise you in my pain and loneliness.

And if that means that you open the doors now, for the dream I laid before you, to reach out to the broken, and provide for me the spesific requests I listed before you right now, then that is ultimately good, and I thank and praise You that Your name will be greatly glorified through that.

For everything you do is good, and wise. And I trust You my Father.
And if you want me to go through tremendous discomfort before you reveal Your face to me, if you want to hide Yourself from me for a time, because in Your infinite wisdom, You know that is best, then I trust Your goodness, and I trust Your kindess, wisdom and processes and I praise You for that as well.

I surrender my life to You Lord. I surrender my all.
All my ambitions, dreams, desires, needs, wants, ideas, mindsets, beliefs, constructs, concepts about how things should work and be, ideals, body, mind, soul, emotions, spirit, hopes, longings, passions, friendships, family, skills, gifts, talents. I bring it all to You Lord Jesus.

You are my God, Abba Father, and I will serve You and no other, I have made up my mind, and I trust Your grace to help me, never ever to bow the knee to any idol again in my life, and never ever to rebel against you in disobedience and also to worship you in Spirit and Truth the way you intend for me to. Help me please Holy Spirit. I need lots of help. So much help. I can not do this without you. But I so desire to.

You know what I need.
You know what is best.
You know how to work with me.
And You know the best way to reveal Yourself to me.

Have Your way Lord, I surrender.

And where you see any part of me, still hardened, not yet surrendered and yielded, please show me and help me to surrender and yield.
And where you see any part of me, not aligned to You fully, come transform me Lord.

You are so welcome Lord.
So welcome Lord Jesus.
To take full control and do things in whatever way, time and fasion that pleases You.
You are so gentle, so meek, so kind, and longsuffering in your ways. Your joy and peace is beautiful. Your righteousness and justice are the foundations of Your throne. And your love is pure, and perfect.

I want to reveal that.
I want to love.

My life is not my own anymore.

Jesus, here I am.

I need you so.

I can do nothing without You Lord.

I wait on You.

Thank you for Your guidance and leadership.

Thank you for the story yesterday, about the little girl who needed braces, because in love her parents knew it is the time to attend to her crooked teeth. But she cried and felt it so cruel and didn't see it as love at all. And it broke the parents hearts. But they still went through with it. And today she is so grateful. Because they did know best.

Lord, if I need spiritual braces to fix my crooked teeth, then I surrender, I yield, no matter how much the discomfort or the pain. Fix me please my Father. I trust You. And if my spine is crooked and my bones needs breaking and regrowing in proper place, and my jaw is out of place and I need all kind of painful processes to fix me Lord, that I can reveal the beauty of Jesus, then here I am. Lord. I just ask that You hold my hand. I ask that you give me grace. I trust you my Jesus. I know You are good.

I thank you for how far we came.

I lay my life down for love.

I am passionate about knowing you and about loving You, with all my heart and soul and mind and strength and all that is within me.

Help me Lord,

Yours,

Humbly,

Your bondservant

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Matthew 16:25,26
"For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.
What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul?
Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?